We have had an interesting community discussion this week in light of a decision made by our City Council. Like a play in three acts there has been a character who has played a starring role throughout this “drama” though he has scarcely been seen. That character is the automobile.

Here is how it has played out.

The Council tentatively approved the move of a popular gymnastics business to a part of town zoned as an automobile only retail area. This “auto lane” is designed to make it possible for people shopping for a car to have a “one stop shopping” experience to compare different brands in one location. Though not an “auto mall” (common around here) it plays the same role on a somewhat smaller scale. The Council wrestled mightily with this decision because if it allows a conditional use permit to the gymnastics group it will lose future revenue from auto sales in this zone.

It turns out that revenue loss could be significant for the city. Auto sales are the single largest source of sales revenue for the city and while a number of sites there sit empty, the city fully expects them to be filled in the years ahead providing much needed revenue for our Northern CA town. (Which, like other CA towns, is starved for revenue due to Prop 13 (and other measures)).

The irony is bitter.

Our small town fancies itself (with reason) as the “bicycling capital of the US” and has the goal that 25% of all trips in town will be by bicycle by the end of this year. Further, it has set a more ambitious goal that by 2050 fully half of all trips in town will be by non-automobile sources. Despite these goals the Council found itself in the difficult position of having to promote auto sales to achieve revenue targets needed to keep critical city services funded. Of course our local citizens are not the only ones buying cars in these establishments, but our simultaneous commitment to lowering our carbon footprint by moving away from car use while promoting auto sales is paradoxical to say the least. Some might be less kind and call it hypocritical.

And so in Act 1 of our local play we find the automobile playing a key role in our lives. Indeed, it is playing a central role because it is driving basic decisions about how we will generate revenue for our town.

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A “Dooring” Retold

Posted: 18 January 2012 in Riding

door (v.tr.) \ˈdȯr\

definition: the act of opening a car door and striking a passing bicycle rider

Example: After parking, the motorist failed to scan the street before opening his car door and doored a bicycle rider who was passing his car.

While the above definition cannot be found in any dictionary that I am aware of, it is a term that is known by and and instills great fear in any urban bicyclist.  Exact statistics on the number of doorings that occur locally or nationally are not available because they either go unreported or are reported simply as bike/car accidents (or just bike accidents).  The following is the recounting of a dooring that occurred locally as told by “J”–a resident of our town who was doored.

Interviewer (I): Walk me through when it happened, where it happened and then we can get into the details of how it happened.

J: I was talking to my girlfriend on the sidewalk and I had just told her that I loved her and “see you later” and I started down the street and someone who had been sitting there for quite a while all of a sudden opened up their door.

I: And where was it and when was it?

J: It was in April of 2011 and it was in broad daylight.

I: So the car that opened the door was parked by the side of the road.

J: Uh huh…

I: Was there a sidewalk that the car was parked?

J: Yes, it was parked in front of a house that’s got a pretty good sized width sidewalk.

I: Was there a marked bike lane there?

J: Two traffic lanes but no marked bicycle lane.

I: Talk to me about where you were riding in relation to the car of the door that hit you and why you were riding in that position–that space.

J: There was traffic to the left of me and I was riding along and I had already passed the bumper of the car when the door started to open in front of me.  So, there was no chance or time to react except for to put my hand up and catch the door.

I: So walk through that. So when the door opened what happened?

J: I caught the car door and got a compound fracture in my right forefinger.  I slowed myself down.  The bicycle got catapulted into the middle of the street and I continued over top of the door and then went down on the asphalt and got a broken humerus, exploded my elbow and bumped my head…

As I put my hand out to catch the door all of a sudden it just stopped… and it gave me a laceration of my liver and when I hit the pavement I got a compound fracture of my humerus, exploded my elbow and cracked a tooth… The laceration of the liver occurred when the door stopped swinging…

I: When you say the bike got catapulted out what do you mean by that?

J: It knocked the bicycle out of the path that it was traveling and catapulted it into the street.

I: Then what happened?

J: I tried to stand up, noticed the broken arm and put pressure on my head because I thought my skull was cracked. And the compound fracture on my forefinger was squirting and I thought I wasn’t gonna make it. Ninety percent of all head injury cases are fatal.

I: It turns out you did not have a serious head injury.  The blood off you head was from your finger.

J: I had a serious concussion.

I: Did the police come? Did the ambulance come?  Who came?

J: The fire department showed up and transported me to the hospital.

I: And what about the police?  Did the police come and interview you about the event?  Did you talk to the police?

J: Yea, but the police told the people in the car that as far as they were concerned I rode my bike up the stairs and rode down and crashed into their car.  That I crashed into their car.  They didn’t even file a police report just an incident report. They should have done a traffic report bicycle versus car but they just wrote it up as an incident–just me just falling off my bicycle.

I: So as far as you know the driver of the car was never charged with anything.

J: No.

I: How long were you in the hospital?

J: Several weeks.

I: Are currently having any therapy related to the injuries?

J: Yea, umm, my elbow has plates and screws and I am supposed to have physical therapy for a year for the elbow and the finger.

I: Do you still ride your bike?

J: Yea

I: Do you find yourself riding it any differently now as a result of what happened there?

J: No.  There’s nothing… If it happened again it would probably be the same scenario because when there’s traffic to the left of you you have to get a little close to the car sometimes.

Note: There is quite a bit to learn from this incident in terms of how one might avoid such situations, what car drivers could do differently, how such incidents are reported and, most strikingly, the danger it represents.  If “J’s” experience is any indication, the number of “doorings” may be underreported.  Even if they are not, they do occur and their effects can be devastating.

Follow this link to watch a video of a “dooring” caught live on camera.  CAUTION: while brief, the video is quite disturbing: http://commuteorlando.com/wordpress/2011/09/22/dooring-caught-on-dashcam/

“Mr. Rearden,” said Francisco, his voice solemnly calm, “if you saw Atlas, the giant who holds the world on his shoulders, if you saw that he stood, blood running down his chest, his knees buckling, his arms trembling but still trying to hold the world aloft with the last of his strength, and the greater his effort the heavier he world bore down on his shoulders – what would you tell him to do?”

“I… don’t know. What… could he do? What would you tell him?”

“To shrug.”

(From Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand, 1957–over 7,000,000 copies sold to date)

It is hard to believe that my mom has been gone these seven years.  Mourning in the time immediately following her death was muted by the fact that mom had “left” us many years before, the victim of that poorly understood, mind stealing affliction she always referred to as “that Alzheimer’s.” Over time, and to my great surprise, my mourning has deepened and stretched to the point that I feel her loss spread over large swaths of my life.  As I try to understand why I come back again and again to the reality that not only do I miss mom’s smile, her gentle ways or her hospitality, but I miss (we all miss) the kind of person she was.  I have a gnawing suspicion that mom’s kind is an endangered species, but that no one is counting the loss.  I fear that one day we will wake up and realize her species has disappeared altogether.

Let me try to explain…

Rick Perlstein argued (fairly convincingly to me at least) that we all live in “Nixonland” now but in recent months I have become convinced that where we all really live is “Randland” (as in Ayn Rand).  Others have pointed out the influence of Ayn Rand in our current political discourse (just one example here) and I will not repeat their arguments. Read the rest of this entry »

“I can’t do it.”

Posted: 5 January 2012 in Faith and Life

I was talking to my grandson on the phone.  He’s two and a half and learning to talk.  He had something exciting to tell me but at a certain point lacked the words or ability to string the words he knew together to make me understand.  He handed the phone to his mom and said “I can’t do it.”

I have spent most of my adult life believing I could “do it”–whatever “it” might be.  One of the great deceptions of privilege is that we believe we can do what needs to be done in order to _____________ (fill in the blank: have a good life, resolve conflict, save children’s lives, have a successful career, heal brokenness, etc.).

Saying “I can’t” is a betrayal of our birth right.

Saying “I can’t” is an admission of failure.

Saying “I can’t” means one has given up.

At least, that’s how it feels looking down the years from where I sit at 50+.  And those feelings lead to a smoldering anger or a kind of depression as the weight of the impossible presses down.  I am convinced that this is the root of the so-called “mid-life crisis”:  waking up to the reality that it is not mine to “do”, even if I think I can (must).

Thinking about my grandson’s willingness to say “I can’t” reminds me that, while that is true, it is also true that I love him anyway. Not for what he does (says) or doesn’t do (say) but for who he is.  He can “be” a little boy and he is really good at that.  And in the “being” he does some pretty amazing things. He brings smiles and laughter and a sense of life full of possibility.  Those are possible for him in just being. They are good things.

Can a two and half year old be my role model?  In this he can and is. There is much I can’t do and the sooner I get around to ceasing to try, the healthier it will be for a lot of people, myself included.  But I can still “be” and, taking my grandson as an example, there is great value in that.

I went to a public meeting to discuss ways to reengineer a major street in Davis, CA (my home town). The stretch of the street in question has one of the highest accident rates in the city.  It is designed for curb to curb automobile use and bicyclists and pedestrians use and cross it at their own risk. So, over 3 years ago our City Council decided to put this street on a diet.  Not surprisingly, some people opposed the project (for a whole variety of reasons), but in the end the leaders of our city decided to go ahead and make it a street friendly to bikes and pedestrians while permitting cars to continue to traverse its length.

Despite this, at the public meeting held to focus on design of the “new” street, about a quarter of those in attendance came only to continue to voice their opposition.  Not only did they waste the time of participants and the project consultants who came to discuss how to make the street a shared space for all modes of transportation, they also betrayed an inability to take a long view on what is needed to make our city healthier and safer. Their implicit long view is that tomorrow’s transportation will be a lot like today’s–dominated by cars typically containing only one person and contributing half or more of the pollutants that pollute our air contributing to asthma in our children and a variety of other respiratory problems (references available upon request). I am NOT talking about greenhouse gasses here but of course our cars emit them too. (Interestingly, while most of the enlightened and oh-so-progressive citizens of our community would never call themselves “climate change deniers”, functionally, that is exactly what they are.)

And, as synchronicity would have it, our city is also struggling mightily to come to terms with the need to provide ourselves with a more sustainable water supply, and one that does not damage the flora and fauna downstream. Again, opponents of a VERY costly project to assure compliance with water discharge laws while securing a more sustainable water supply fail to take a realistic long view.  In this case the self-deception is not about human health and safety–as is the case for the “road diet”–but about how much we pay for our water now and whether or not what we pay reflects the true cost of mining, treating, delivering, retreating and discharging that water. Read the rest of this entry »

Warning: Christian Theological Stuff Ahead. Not for all tastes…

I – A Song from My Childhood (and a question)

Among my earliest memories.

I will sing of my Redeemer,

And His wondrous love to me;

On the cruel cross He suffered,

From the curse to set me free.

Sing, oh, sing of my Redeemer,

With His blood He purchased me,

On the cross He sealed my pardon,

Paid the debt, and made me free.


Question: To whom did the Redeemer pay the debt that purchased/pardoned/liberated me?

Everyone knows (or assumes they know) what happened in Davis on that Friday afternoon (given that it has all gone “viral” there is no need to rehash the events here). And most people have an idea about what needs to happen now.

But do we really know what happened beyond what our eyes and ears reveal? And what should we do about it? Is it too late to ask these questions?

Beyond the warnings, the chants, the spraying, the crying, the inevitable accusations, condemnations, denials, apologies, calls for resignations and appointment of commissions to investigate it all lies the reality of what happened to everyone involved. What happened is that something broke—or something already cracked finally gave way, or something fragile was finally shattered. The “something” that broke was relationships. Relationships that sustain a community and nurture it to enable its members to do things that none of them (none of us), individually, could do alone.

We talk a great deal about “community” but simultaneously seem unable to define what it takes to build it; uncertain what to do when it breaks down; ill equipped to rebuild it when it lies shattered at our feet. And so we stand around the broken relationships of that day and we avert our eyes, raise our voices and demand relief—from someone, from somewhere—relief that will soothe our brokenness and make the pain and uncertainty go away.

If what really happened on that day is that relationships were broken (and yes, laws may have been broken—I am not saying they were not) then what should we do about it?

In our world justice has come to mean a few things that are pretty clear to all of us.  When we all understand something then none of us really question it or the premises on which it rests.  This is the case here, I believe. To us, justice means 1) discovering if laws were broken; 2) finding who is responsible if they were; 3) trying the accused according to norms that assume innocence until guilt is proven; 4) punishing the guilty if the guilt is demonstrated beyond a reasonable doubt.

More deeply, however, justice has come to mean that those found guilty should be removed from among us (Resign! Fire him/her!). And while we are learning that we can’t do this forever—building more jails and putting more people in them seems to solve little while its costs are enormous (and not just financially so)—we are so deeply committed to this way of thinking about justice that we cannot imagine viable alternatives. “Someone must pay!” has come to mean “Someone must leave!”

But perhaps more importantly than these points is how we define the “victim” in our current justice system.  As it currently stands, in criminal cases it is the state, not the actual victim of a crime, who is the victim. The offender’s offence is against the state and the state determines both the guilt and the punishment. In this world the true victim plays a bit role—serving the needs of the offended state as a witness or silent bystander to whom the state points as part of the revealing of evidence. Our system shunts the victim aside with vague promises of “closure” if/when a guilty verdict is announced.

It is important to keep these realities in mind as we return to Davis and revisit what really happened on that sad day. The victims were a group of students who by most people’s reckoning had violence perpetrated against them by the campus police force with the tacit or explicit support of their superiors.

[Some may object that I am proclaiming guilt before due process has taken its course but I think I am on safe ground because one of the “superiors” in question—the University Chancellor—apologized publicly after the event saying she felt “horrible for what happened.”  I know, I know, that was not an admission of guilt that would stand up in any court. But let us be honest and not hide behind process here.  Let us acknowledge that in that very human act of apologizing the Chancellor admitted that wrongs were done.  True, the wrongs were not named and the whole thing was stated in very general terms, but you and I know what was going on here.  Further, I am not suggesting that victims were engaging in legal behavior—I am not exonerating them of wrongdoing.  I am merely saying excessive force was used in an injurious way.  That, I would argue, was wrong even if no court of law says so.]

But in addition to those who bore the brunt of the force, the victims also include the entire community which now finds itself riven by doubt about the role of an entity that it had, heretofore, assumed was in place to protect it.  Please do not mistake my meaning here: I am not appealing to some sloppy sense that “we are all victims.”  Rather, I am acknowledging that when a very public act of violence is committed against members of our community—whether we agree with them or their lifestyles or their choices—that violence affects all of us.  In this way we, along with all those involved become part of a broken thing—the broken relationships that cause us pain, outrage and doubts about whether we can ever make this broken thing whole.

The question we must ask is whether the assumptions and practices of our extant justice system will serve the needs of a broken community; of the victims who have physically healed from the violence but bear its scars; of offenders who also have needs along with responsibilities; of the students, employees and leaders of UC Davis and citizens of our city who struggle to know what to do now given a new and more troubling understanding of the fragility of order in our small town.

It will do us no good for the state to determine that it is the victim and must try the offenders away from us and deal with them in its way. We need a justice system that has the potential to bring the victims and the offenders together so that

1) The victims can tell their story, be honest about their anger, their hurt and how they feel wronged;

2) The offenders can acknowledge the wrongs they have committed;

3) The two can agree on a plan for how the offenders can make things right;

4) The relationships that lie in tatters can be restored.

We need restorative justice: justice that seeks to reestablish relationship by assuring that the wrongs that occurred are named and corrected. This can only happen if we all commit to a process of listening, of discovery and learning. Does the state have a role in this at all?  I believe it does. A creative Attorney General or District Attorney with the help of a wise judge could encourage the parties to seek the help of a professional victim/offender conference facilitator (I will not say “mediator” because that assumes two groups with equal standing, that is not the case here).  The state can agree to abide by the decisions that the parties come to and step in only if the two cannot reach a mutual agreement.

Restorative justice will allow victims to get information they need—most importantly perhaps answers to the questions: “How and why did the police respond this way? Why did they hurt us?”

Restorative justice demands accountability of the offenders. In this case that would be the police officers who used force, the police chief who was negligent or actively promoted the use of force, the Vice Chancellor who (tacitly or explicitly) supported or was willfully ignorant of what the police planned, and the Chancellor who ordered their removal and was, again either willfully ignorant or in support of the actions taken.

Restorative justice will allow the community to grow in its sense of community and be empowered to engage more actively in healing and restoration in the future.

In the end, restorative justice says that offences are a violation of relationships, that these violations create obligations and that the central obligation is to right the wrongs committed. May we find a way through the brokenness brought on by this event so we can develop the tools to truly build community at our university and in our city.

Much more needs to be said about the offenders—the fact that they are people, that their lives, too, have been fundamentally altered by the choices they made. Much more also needs to be said about the role of the “institution”—UC Davis. While we point to the Chancellor and the police as the perpetrators of violence we must also consider how the institution of which they are a part conditions and constrains their ability to act (and react) to situations like the one in which we find ourselves.  More on these issues later, perhaps.

For more on restorative justice principles see: The Little Book of Restorative Justice by Howard Zehr.

An unexpected blog posting…

Posted: 9 May 2011 in Uncategorized

As you know, I have stopped writing this blog (for now).  But I check in from time to time to refer to something I wrote previously. Today when I signed in the following was here.  I thought it was spam.  I suspected someone had hacked my posts.  But then I read it and it seemed familiar.  I do not know from where (from when) it comes but… here it is.

It’s Happening on County Road 99

I am riding out to the farm like I do, sun warming already.  The fields drift by.  Tomatoes, alfalfa, vines, melons, corn.  A slow moving vehicle approaches and the van (green, old) behind decides to pass it coming at me in a rush.  I always hate that.  Dangerous.  And I am thinking, “Why can’t he just wait? What is the hurry?”

And I see something has gone wrong (tire blown, spilled coffee?) and he is coming sideways.  At me.

Everything is now and I see it all: a face, solid metal, a broken bike, a carcass.  And then I see—down the road at the shrine where another passed on.  He is standing there.

And I draw near (I can’t find words in the tongue of my infancy—for now I am “older”—for what it is, but I move, I come nigh, I cross space/time… I draw near).  And I see him by the shrine (a cross, ribbons and the pictures of him).  And the brokenness is stripped away and I see that healing has come.  He nods and I know that all is well.  He knows me.

And I am wondering… “Am I a ghost?  An apparition sent to haunt the green van man?”  And now I see him in the hospital.  And now I see him at home, on crutches with broken parts.  And now I see him “whole” but only in body. And now I see him brittle and angry.  And now I see him, bottle in hand…

And I draw near.  And I see that he is haunted.  But not by me.  I am not a ghost.  His mind is twisted and black and as I draw near I see that he is haunted by the memory of a choice.  He is tortured by a decision.  He sees the body.  Not broken. Oh no, that body is not broken.  It is pulverized.  No bone remains.  The skin torn away.  The insides strewn about in an unordered way. The whole like a melted candle that has flowed across the table in reds and browns and grays. And he sees it and it breaks something that I am thinking is his mind.

And I draw near and it peels back (the mind?).  Again the words of my childhood (for now I am much older) fail.  There is a new language but crossing into the old is not possible.  So I say again: it peels back, it is stripped away, the curtains part… And I see, as I draw near, that within the brokenness, within the pain, within the black is a spark.  A life.

And I draw near and I see that healing is now and now and now for the green van man.  But now torture.  Now pain. Now release.  Now hope.

And I see her, and her and him.  And in a different way their minds too are black and broken and sad and they weep… now. And further beyond them I see others who pain but as I draw near I see it stripped away…

And I draw near and I see the same spark that lies beyond.  And as I draw near the darkness here is peeled away too.  And now, and now and now is healing and release.

I am on CR 99.  The fields of tomato and alfalfa and corn are diseased and stricken.  I am seeing them as they are—bearing their fruit in pain.  Diminished by the years of neglect.  They too are tortured and they are stricken bearing the curse of a thousand generations of rape and neglect.  And I see that the fields and the machine that is striking me down are joined to the wars and the bombings and that the children and mothers who are swept along by the torrent are at one with the destruction of the fields and the horrific speed of the green van.  And I am seeing that they are all part of a desire, a yearning, a drive to live without limits.

And I draw near to the fields, to the mountains beyond, to the battlefields and urban slaughterhouses and as I go further in and further in I see it strip away—the brokenness, the fatigue, the groaning.  In it all is a spark.  As I draw near I see that it the healing is now and now and now.

How else can I explain?  I am unprepared for this.  No imagination.  No story. Nothing I know.

I see the body that is and is no more and I am knowing that all is moving towards the great unwinding—the great stripping away of the darkness and decay. And I am on CR 99 where it all begins (for me at least).

And you are wondering now “Is he alone? Is he a ‘wanderer?’”

I am not permitted to tell all of it (I can only say “I am not permitted”, but I do not know why… It is not the time), but what I am able to say is “No, I am not alone.  She is here (“here” is hard to explain) and she remembers.  He is here and he smiles, free of the drink that steals it all.  She is here and wears a feather.  They are here hand in hand.”

There is more to tell… But the telling is for now, and now and now…  It is happening on County Road 99 and I am hoping you will come and see.  But sure you will not.  Sure that you cannot.

(Silently) Traveling at the Speed of Bike

Posted: 12 February 2011 in Uncategorized
For all five of you who read my blog semi-regularly, I just thought I would let you know that the blog is going silent for now. It has been a year and the discipline of writing has been good. I may get back to it at some point but for now… Lots of weeds to pull (that is not a metaphor). Lots of people to walk with (that is). Rest assured that I will keep living close to home at a human pace–a pace no faster than the speed of bike.

Best.

Most people would not consider Stephen King to be a prominent social critic.  But after reading his latest set of short stories Full Dark, No Stars I am thinking that maybe we should reconsider.  In four brief vignettes King forces us (as always) to look into the deep recesses of our hearts and deal with… the tragic loss of the family farm, the horror of sexual violence (fueled by the ubiquitous marketing phenomenon?), and the general disregard for human life that lurks oh so close to all of us (sleeping in our beds with us?).

In the shortest piece of this collection “Fair Extension” King introduces us to Streeter and draws us into a lighthearted (for him) tale that seems to be the comic relief of this grim selection until it too reaches up and grabs us by the throat.  Streeter has advanced stage cancer but, on his way home along a lonely stretch of road one evening, he meets a man who holds out the promise of “extending” life.  We know where this is going don’t we?

Or do we? King adds two twists that take us in a direction that is, frankly, a far less comfortable place to go. Not so lighthearted after all.

Rather than demand Streeter’s soul in exchange, this fallen “demon”–clearly not the big bad guy–offers the “extension” in exchange for…hard cash.  Fifteen percent of Streeter’s earnings from now until… Deposited in a bank account in the Caymans.  This is strictly business.  Ahh… but there is a second twist and one that “twists” the knife even deeper into our own psyche (does it not “gentle reader” as SK likes to call us?).

To get his extension Streeter has to name a person he “hates”.  The price is now clear: this is a zero sum game; your gain is, well, someone else’s pain.  Will Streeter accept?  Read the story.

(This story immediately brought to mind a more horrific tale, the title of which I cannot remember, that I read many years ago.  In that one a genius discovers a way to travel to heaven.  He parleys his discovery into a great deal of money for himself–and a great deal of pain for others.  It turns out that every time someone travels to heaven a gaping chasm–centered right in the middle of the poorest, most destitute, part of his city–opens further, swallowing everything above it.  One person’s trip to heaven is another person’s trip to hell.  And make no mistake, a trip to heaven costs quite a bit–something like 15% percent of a person’s life earnings, shall we say?).

Nearly ten years ago our local paper ran a series of articles entitled “State of Denial.” In it, the author described how those of us who live in California build our homes, run our cars and, put food on our table on the backs of people who live far from us.  Our hunger for wood strips boreal forests; our thirst for gasoline despoils the Amazon, and our craving for fish empties the seas off South America.  We are committed to “preservation” of our space but not to “conservation” of resources in a broader sense.

In other words–we “extend” our luxury, for a cost to be sure (15%?), by robbing life from those who live far away.  But do we hate them (in the way Streeter hated the one whose sad fate would seal his deal)?  You would argue no… we do not hate them.  We have not made the deal that Streeter made. But what is hate if not the other side of the coin of obsessive love of self that drives the thoughts of others from our minds.  Is hate not a disregard–a dismissal–of the humanity of the other?

Historian Andrew Bacevich reminds us of the long history of this disregard:

In a 1948 State Department document, diplomat George F. Kennan offered this observation: “We have about 50 percent of the world’s wealth, but only 6.3 percent of its population.”  The challenge facing American policymakers, he continued, was “to devise a pattern of relationships that will permit us to maintain this disparity.”  Here we have a description of American purposes that is far more candid than all of the rhetoric about promoting freedom and democracy, seeking world peace, or exercising global leadership.

And so we go to Cairo (or Baghdad, or Kabul, or Gaza City or Algiers, or… need I go on?) and we find that policy makers are “concerned” that a popular uprising there will destabilize world markets, will lead to disruption of oil flows or will lead to a less “friendly” regime in Egypt.  Israeli leaders condemn the US as naive for abandoning a leader who has brought stability to the Middle East.  And, as Glenn Greenwald notes, the US seems ready to support Mubarak’s chosen successor–Omar Suleiman–because he is a “stalwart ally”–having smoothed the way for extraordinary renditions that have made our lives so much safer in fortress America.

We are Streeter–we buy our prosperity with the wealth of our ancestors (itself acquired at the barrel of a gun and via the slaughter of innocents) and we seal the deal by naming that which we love (ourselves) and by extension that which we hate (the “other”–the Egyptian, the Iraqi, the Honduran, the Haitian).

I am pointing no fingers.  I own my role in the transaction.  All I can do now is seek out the demon with whom I made the wager and end the transaction–refuse to pay, renounce my “hatred”, and then live with the consequence that my “extension” will no longer be extended.

Am I ready?